Beliefs you’d sowed (Draft)

It may be too late, an arm to stretch now your way

But you just smile, and that just may mean, that I may

To say a word, I'm hopping you have longed to hear;

To halve your pain, your wanted answers to make clear!

Though long may be, since trust amongst we needn’t fake

In those new times, I know, the words too often break;
But, long since then, I’ve walked along with reflection
Beliefs you’d sowed, have grown within into perfection…

I wish I could, inside your soul to drop my eye

To see the waves, of pain it caused you, my “Goodbye!”
It is unlikely, I ever may forgive my sin, even though
You say I’m selfish, and too mean;
I wish I could, beyond your smile, to see my meaning
Even if, the reading would not make me beaming;
All it’s left I thought it’s yours, - again I wronged;
All you’d needed, was the warmth of love, and to belong…

I am rushing judgement, again, as did those years ago

When perfection, though high I keep, I rated low
I better ready to look you in your eye, and fair
I hope I’m able not to be judge, but stand and dare.

This much, at least, I owe you, or what I think I’d rightly lost

The righteous, you, I am just a figure, just a ghost
But now I'm happy, even if you take off, and fly
You needn’t wave, you needn’t even say “Goodbye”

I wish I could, inside your soul to drop an eye

To see the waves, of pain it caused you, my “Goodbye!”
It is unlikely, I ever may forgive my sin, even though
You say I’m selfish, and too mean;
I wish I could, beyond your smile to see my meaning
Even if, the reading would not make me beaming;
All it’s left, I thought it’s yours, - again I wronged;
All you’d needed, was the warmth of love, and to belong…

Përparim 2013